Scribble Me Onto A Paper Heart

2010-11-30T17:31:00.000+08:00

See you there. =)

http://pantshanglow.tumblr.com/

2010-10-24T01:47:00.002+08:00

When you feel down and broken, always remember that there is a second chance for everything.
It takes more strength to hold on to faith and hope, rather than lifting weights. =)

2010-10-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

Forgive me dear God.

2010-10-15T02:08:00.003+08:00

Time is just a monster that never sleeps, just waiting for you to fall victim.

2010-10-08T04:21:00.002+08:00

Stop following the crowd.
Don't be the mirror.
The person behind the glass wall.
who are you?

2010-10-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

Pretty Jawesome.

2010-10-03T15:44:00.003+08:00

Many of us wish we were superheros
but all for different reasons.
Some of us want to help people,
others for the fame and glory.
Some just want to know what its like to be in control,
others for getting that one person they've always admired.

I just want the pleasure of hiding behind a mask and have my identity unknown to the world.
Life just gets easy when you're socially invisible.

2010-10-03T03:12:00.002+08:00

Lazer??? LOL
p.s: PJ Ladd please win BATB3.

2010-09-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

Revenge is best served cold.

2010-09-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

A man who knows nothing of pain, shall have no fear.
A man who knows no fear, fears not of death.
A man who fears not of death, shall live forever.

2010-09-07T20:31:00.003+08:00

If all goes well and conditions are perfect, I'm doin it. All out before its too late.

Kill Yo' Self.

P.S: nothing connected to suicidal/emo intent here.

2010-08-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower,
But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief.
So Dawn goes down to day.
Nothing Gold can stay.

2010-08-29T04:14:00.002+08:00

I SHOULDN'T BE FEELING THIS.

GET OUT OF MY HEAD. DON'T START AGAIN.

2010-08-14T22:38:00.005+08:00

FAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKK!!! Just stumbled across a whole list of FREAKIN AWESOME CHOPPY ASS CHUG METALCORE bands!! Plus some technical deathcore bands. !@%#)(&$!@)(*#!)(*!!!!! and i dont have enough space for them on my memory card. DAMN! i need more than just 2GB for this kinda ear jizzing music!!

2010-08-14T16:18:00.003+08:00

BADASS GRAPHS!!! how i wish i had skills like this.

Very Appropriate for Leeya. HAHAHAHA

OOOOO PWNEDDDD!!!!!

It's fasting month. awesome! i like to fast. i like to challenge myself. im weird. haha. I need a new game to play. Bored at home. think i'll go to the library at boon lay tomorrow. I wanna borrow some comics and books. I know. surprising. i actually wanna go to a library. ahahaha. I feel like my brain juices are slowly drying up. gotta start reproducing them and getting the brain to churn again. hahaha. Ok im super duper bored now.

New shit hiding in my closet. muahahaha! get buckkkkkkkk!! im out . peace.

2010-08-10T01:54:00.002+08:00

I've got a new anime to watch now. High School Of The Dead. Freakin awesome. I'm in it for the gore and zombies. But if you like hot japanese characters with a dose of blood, this is definitely one anime you'll like. You won't regret it. hahaha. on another note, big thank you to leeya for having lunch with me just now and sending me all the way to petal eventhough i didnt ask her to. tsk3. such a kind girl. ahahahaha xD!

2010-08-08T01:43:00.002+08:00

Definitely one of the most badass digimons in the Digi History. yes i said DigiHistory like its actually real. hahahahahah! and Yes. I still have the likes and behavior of a 10 year old kid. but who cares? this is WHO I AM.

2010-08-06T23:19:00.002+08:00

Revenge is at the end of this bat and as i wait in the darkness to return what you gave.
Cheap Shot MotherFucker. Your face looks better bleeding!

Overworked and exhausted. And damn the traffic is getting more killer now. holiday season.

2010-08-01T04:00:00.001+08:00

Awesome Drummer with fuckin awesome hair. hahaha. damn i wanted to get hair like his since a long time ago.

2010-07-30T19:20:00.003+08:00

Anybody wanna form a band? for fun. hit me up. Metalcore. Never really got the chance to have a metalcore band. hahahah.

2010-07-29T15:14:00.002+08:00

So what happens when the cookie crumbles?
When things happen not in your favour.
Would you give in and just stumble?
Or would you draw the excalibur?

Everybody's stabbing each other in the back.
Caused by a mastermind of manipulation.
Gaining pleasure from every single broken neck.
This is my call out to you to stop your damnation.

With the punches we'll fight through this.
We'd never give up, never give up.
Kill you and decapitate you in your own mist.
Celebrate with your filthy blood in a cup.

AAAAAAHHHHHNNNNGGGG!! BUDAK MEEEEPPEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKK!!! ahahahahaha

2010-07-27T02:49:00.002+08:00

Back From KL mayyynneeeeee. Awesome shit. Skating with Amin, Syafiq and Siraj in KL. Mont K was off the hook amazing despite the huge obstacles. Freaking great things they have got going on in Malaysia nowadays. So to those singaporeans who love dissing malaysia, stop hating cause these people got more shit goin on than u know. peace out.

2010-07-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

My handphone is dead. Officially gone case. i need a new phone. gahhh. just when i thought about saving money. Motherfishcake!! and to those who might have texted, sorry if i didnt text back. dont be a bitch about it. hahah. peace out.

2010-07-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

I hate injuries.

2010-07-17T02:12:00.002+08:00

Anyone remember this game? hahahahaha. awesome classic fun siaaaaa! hahaha XD

So i'm taking MC for saturday. The reason is cause i'll be working 4days straight till my next off. Been awhile since i skated with azhari and shafizal. shall be skating with them on saturday. ok im all done.

P.S: leeya shall not get anything to do her crazy voodoo craft on me with . HAAHAH!

2010-07-15T02:18:00.002+08:00

Flatland sesh today at Admiralty. Cannot ever leave out flatland stuff. Kinda essential in my opinion. Other's may not think likewise. but hey, everyone's entitled to their own opinion. =)

Besides that, i read somwhere in either one of these mags(thrasher or transworld) that jimmy carlin will be turning pro some time soon. in afew months. its about time he turned pro. damn i wish i had some crazy tricks like him.

2010-07-14T02:04:00.002+08:00

Cashier training today. Was fun overall, despite the constant backaches and pains. fuck, im getting old. I wonder how the girls can just stand up straight like that and not complain at all. ahaha. got home and straight away crashed on the sofa. seriously exhausted. And shit ahh. im supposed to go register for my car licence in jb on this friday but i gt work. alamakkkkk. leceh. ma fan lahhhh. And i seriously need to watch what i eat. really feel like im getting fat. i dont wanna gain weight!!! Bruce Lee help me please!! ahahahahah XD

2010-07-13T02:04:00.003+08:00

MY NEW GIRLFRIEND!
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I wish.... hahahaa xD

2010-07-11T01:18:00.002+08:00

Best Watch Out. Things are gonna start Bangin' soon.

2010-07-09T02:30:00.003+08:00

Thanks to my buds and homies for wishing me on my birthday. I appreciate it lots. you guys have my deepest thanks. =)

2010-07-07T20:59:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Bryner Momo. hahahahaha. See ya soon bro.

i gotta start waking up earlier and sleeping earlier as well. myehh. plus,i dont know why, but recently, i've been really hungry. i get hungry, FAST. damn, dont wanna gain weight.

2010-07-07T03:07:00.003+08:00

Big F.U.C.K to all of you. Your hate motivates me. Keep it comin bitches.

2010-07-06T19:58:00.002+08:00

I lack self discipline and that's one of the main things i've been working on for this whole year. Self discipline is the key to everything. without it, it's close to impossible to achieve anything. Sheer dumb luck doesn't come to anybody. I fell 10 steps on my self discipline mission yesterday, but i shall get back on the train and push forward. Never back down no matter what. I MUST SUCCEED.

2010-07-06T02:17:00.001+08:00

Hot Damnnnn! I never really realised how freakin hot Lady Gaga actually was. O___O!!

2010-07-05T02:42:00.003+08:00

Can't get enough of this band. Definitely top 5 fo sure. This is what I mean by brutality + technical shit + chunky phat breakdowns. Add all that together and it equals to a possible brain orgasm. hahaha. Kraken is THE mudafuckin shit man!

2010-07-03T02:57:00.002+08:00

What's with all the hating thats spreading around like a disease nowadays? Never forget what we once were. Homies don't create oceans in between them. Once air tight. High 5's everywhere. Supporting each other and keeping it real. Where u niggas at? We're all neutral like we always have been. We had a plan and we made it happen. Some may have had doubts about it but sure as hell we pulled it off man. And now there's all this drama and shit. wtf? Anyways, we're always here to roll with u guys. See you guys around the bend. WE ARE ALL THE SAME. STOP HATING. peace.

2010-06-30T01:59:00.002+08:00

I shall get u one day. Stupid Monkey Shotgun Upside Down Pancake Mix. gah!

2010-06-25T23:54:00.005+08:00

i honestly think michael jackson is handsome even after the surgeries. why does everyone think otherwise? hahah. im not gay, just stating my opinion. plus he's a really talented dancer and singer. no doubt about that. haha. my ankle has not healed fully yet. its getting better but the process is really2 slow. Due to so many injuries, my ankle bone has popped out. its kinda obvious. but lucky me, there's a silver lining for everything. Pes C. hahaha. This sunday going for some traditional chinese treatment. i freaking miss rolling with the guys. HEAL FASTERRRR!!!

oh and a big thank you to Leeya for accompanying me to Alexandra Hospital that day. awesome day. =D

2010-06-16T16:35:00.002+08:00

after many many manyyyy months of not touching my guitar, i decided to have a go at it again. Here is my terrible and measley attempt at TIJ's Hook,Line And Sinner. man i suck. hahaha. sorry if your ears bleed from the atrocity. hahaha. xD

2010-06-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

My face is retarded. i know . SHH! hahahahhaa

Sprained ankle. awesome. =.=" note to self: never skate with a disurbed or troubled mind. always skate free and happy. clear your mind before you start. damnnn. hope it heals quick. or else im gonna be wasting my off days again. gah!

2010-06-10T22:47:00.002+08:00

COME GET SOME, NIGGA!

Black metal seshes are the shizznits. only a bunch knows of this. and its not what many may think. besides that, im starting to feel extremely lazy to go to work. i wanna convert from full time to part time. hope they approve though. myeh. plus webcamming with lena was fun last night. i miss her a whole bunch. been so long since i saw her and its so heart warming to see her laugh like that. smile like that. =) stay happy always alright ? ^^

2010-05-28T02:54:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought about saving my dough, my deck cracked and my shoes are starting to have holes. now i need to use my money. =.=" but nvm. anything for the joy of skateboarding. woohoo.

anndddd..

Happy Birthday(kinda belated in this post) To Lena!! Your such an awesome girl. u never fail to make me laugh. u say the most randomest things ever and i love u to bits!! Wish u all the bestest in your endeavors. Sorry i cant talk to u much nowadays on MSN. works a bitch and my internet is following suit too. myehhh. but i still HOPE you!! =D <33333333

Not to forget. Happy birthday Daddyooooo.. Ure now 50 years huh Mr Jackie Chan. muahahaa. I still remember the days when u had 8 packs. now you're retired. nyahahaha! Best dad in the world marfarkin world nigaaaaa!!

2010-05-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

The old Freddy Kreuger is much more badass than the new gay Freddy Kreuger. New Nightmare On Elm Street Movie is quite a disappointment. i prefer the old ones. much more bloody. hahaha. on the other hand, today was my off day. So went to skate with the hardflip king, shafizal. hahaha! i was given the Ip Man double fist punch yesterday. hahahahahahaha. ahhh! working again tomorrow. this sucks. night shift. myehhh. =.=

annnddd i made this stupid question site. http://www.formspring.me/khalidLee sooo..ask me shit..i think.. haaaha.. k bye.

2010-05-13T04:09:00.002+08:00

Most Badass man that has ever lived. Inspiration.

Gyeaahhh niggaaaa. Got the job. woo. Received a call this morning and they informed me of the details on when i need to start work. Gotta go sign the contract and all that first on friday morn before i start work. finally. a retail job. haha. awesome. ah its 4.13am now and i haven't slept. damn. The muscle cramps are not a hundred percent gone yet. i feel like an old man. hahaha. anyway, i got a damn psychiatric checkup at CMPB later on today. yes. cmpb yet again. _|_ at 11.45am. i better get some sleep. see ya. *whoever that reads all this crap i type anyways. haha*

2010-05-12T01:17:00.001+08:00

I hope i get the job. please please please.

i need new wheels and soon gonna need new kicks as well. damn it.

I miss........

2010-05-10T03:01:00.002+08:00

myehh. i miss skating. i miss the old Twitch skate sessions. now everyone is either busy with jobs and school or with their personal lives. what else? hmm. i miss some of my friends. both online and off. i miss skating with kai lobangsssxxzzzz (i'm not gay). hahaha. skating with the old woodlands guys. reno, naz, kenit and din. i miss drain skating. LOL. i miss jamming. hahah. i miss Lena. holy crap lena, ure gone in England for so long. freakin come back already sistaaa. hahah. i miss bruce lee. nah im kidding. hahaa. don't talk shit bout him. Bruce Lee is KING! hahahaha. okayyy. randommm. I miss the bedok stage. i don't miss the bedok rail of shit. screw that rail man. lol. i miss 25 cents vanilla cone ice cream. HAHA. I miss working at Timezone. i freakin miss staying in Singapore. thats for bloody hell sure. i would trade all the DVD's i have in my house(trust me, thats ALOT of dvds) just to have a one room flat in singapore. hahaha. and last but not least, i miss ******h. muahaa. i don't know why, but i just miss u thats all. nothing weird bout that righhhttt?? err. yea. hahahaha. ok bye2. OH ONE MORE THING. I MISS BEING ABLE TO SLEEP EARLY. hahahahaha. peace.

P.S: Kick Ass is a kickass movie. and i wish i had a gf like that. what? she's hot ok. haha.

2010-05-08T17:47:00.002+08:00

Have not been skating since wednesday. Reason: Leg cramps and muscle strains. =.= what a flying fish. Probably due to over exertion on the last day of skating. haha. but i have no regrets. skating is always rewarding no matter what. but gah! im dreading my birthday. This is the first time I'm hoping that my birthday doesn't come soon. cause I DON'T WANNA BE FREAKIN 20! hahahaha. no more a teen already. myehhh. this sucks. I'm wondering when Emerica: Stay Gold is gonna come out. If i wait any longer, i'm the one that's gonna turn to gold. haha. ok bye.

2010-05-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

Credits: Jonathan Danker

Boy band?????? hahhahahaaa

2010-05-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

Back tailslide backside flip out. Front tail frontside flip out. kickflip K-grind. HOT DAMN! those shits got my brain to flip over and do a spinerooni. hahaha. Terrorkota skaters are amazing mannn. props. chilled out yet deadly. I wish i could one day skate as goosd as them. i wish. and damn my legs are tired from skating. like 5 days in a row. haha. wanna watch ip man 2. and Ugly Americans is amazingly funny. if u like dirty twisted dark humour. hahaha. ok im tired. bye.

2010-04-28T02:35:00.002+08:00

Medical review today at Alexandra Hospital. they say my fainting episodes may just be a rare thing. now they say i gotta go for some heart scan. which is gonna be in june. =.= what a long wait. i wanna get into NS as quickly as possible cause i don't wanna be held back by that one tiny thing. which takes up 2 years. myehhh. i think i ate maybe too much today. i feel like my stomach is bloated or something. what did i eat? one chocolate bun. one kaya bun. one large fries. and maggi. damn. maybe thats a lil too much??

2010-04-25T01:13:00.008+08:00

guys, we're not meant to be "reps".. hahahaa

Since Secondary School beeyatchhh... hahaa..2 original impromptu songs too..not bad huh? hahahahahaa!

2010-04-24T02:14:00.002+08:00

Reunion with sec sch best friends = kick ass awesomeness!!

i think the walk from woodlands checkpoint to kranji mrt station has helped me increase my walking capability. i feel enhanced and upgraded. new skill achieved. level up to lvl 37. ahahahaha! and i'm still feeling the pinch of heartbreak. yet something is telling me not to lose hope. i think that "something" wants to make me crazy. hahaha. ok ding dong chao!

2010-04-21T22:27:00.003+08:00

i pretty much fail epicly when it comes to things concerning people of the opposite gender. yes. the female of our species. i've had this thing for this one girl for a long time. ok scratch that. a really long time. but i've never had the guts to tell her i felt that way. how long u may ask..i would get the term days and months out of the way. cause its been years. i wont say how many years though. i've kept my distance from her at times cause i wanted to fight off that feeling, knowing that she's probably out of my league. i was stupid enough to believe that someone of my appearance and status actually had a chance with someone of her standard. come on khalid. how much more naive could you be? somehow i have been keeping away from telling her how i feel inside and managed to do so quite well..until today. where i suddenly felt like it was time to get things out in the open.

well. the verdict : FAIL.

the sad part was that i actually only told her i liked her. i didn't really say how i liked her and all that. u know what i mean right. and just like a pie to the face. she doesn't feel the same way towards me. well, i was kinda expecting it to be honest. but anyhow, its all said and done now. i do feel like my heart has been crushed by a juggernaut but i guess its better for to know now rather than have that hope and continue chasing shadows right? its not so easy to rid myself of this feeling but hey i guess i'll get through it eventually right? i hope so.

i never got a chance to prove myself but that's just how things work. deal with it. i hold no grudges against her of course. i'm not that low. but all i ever wish for right now is just an opportunity. that is all. then again, that could be too much to ask for. im out.

2010-04-21T14:20:00.002+08:00

Dear god, im trying really hard to stay on the right path. i may go astray at times but i beg u to give me the strength and willpower to get back. im doing my best and putting all my efforts into just this one thing. So please protect my mind and soul from the temptations of the devil and all other negativity. Please give me the strength dear god.

i still cant figure when to say it. i cant help but feel the dilemma right now. i dont wanna jump in too fast but i also feel like i'm taking it maybe a tad too slow. i dont know. the feeling is real and it probably isn't goin anywhere. you never seem to amuse me each and every single time. i guess thats one thing that i adore about you. but yea. who is this "you?" Guess when the time is right, you'll probably know it. some already know. but for the others, lets just leave it a mystery.

2010-04-13T20:56:00.003+08:00

Bored at home. so i plugged in my trusty guitar and just doodled around with it. been ages since i played it. and i "made a song"..not really.. cause its just me playing random shit.. hahahahaha.. enjoy..or maybe not.. haha.. peace..

2010-04-10T00:17:00.002+08:00

Gotta go to jalan kayu tmrw at 7pm. Work. hahaa. after how many years i finally decide to work. *angelic music plays* its a miracle. hahahaha. bryner, sorry cant accompany you to margaret bro. my stomach is full of nonsense. been eating crappy/junk-like food for today. nuggets with chilli sauce and rice. not as delicious as i thought it would be. hahah. Plus i've been watching Bleach for the past few days. alot of bleach. cos i totally got nothing better to do to be honest. trying not to go out alot cause my passport is running on the last page already. im tired but when i take a shower and try to sleep, i cant. !@#%$#$!!@#!@#.. lol.. anyways, i'm starting to feel abit less awkward in starting conversations with u. still fighting and holding back these sudden urges to blurt out some stuff though. i dont want it out now. im just keeping it inside for now.

BAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTAAAAAAA!!! bye2.. hahaha

2010-04-03T03:18:00.003+08:00

Cracked my deck. aaahhh. hate this shit right here man. this sucks. gotta use my savings for a new deck. my moneyyyy...burnt!

p.s: woohooooo..happy for no reason but one..hahaaa..

chaoxinchi!

2010-03-31T00:04:00.003+08:00

Ahh mannn..i dont care if she'd read this or not.Screw it alright. im typing out whats in my head. First of all..Wow..she's really prettyyyyy..i mean like..i know shes pretty. but when i saw her..she's like prettier. haha. and sorry if i didnt talk much. my nerves always get the better of me. and im not good with meeting new people. even more worse if its a girl. haha. bad bad social skills. hahaha. u brought your friend!! unfair! hahahaha. making me even more nervous. grrr..haha.. but its all good. still had fun though. Twister. HAHAHA. whaaattt?? hahaha.. Though it was not long. it was still a nice 2 hours spent. =) and damn u really look alot like yuri!! this is insane.hahaha. i wish we could meet up again soon though..lets catch up with each other again. ^^

2010-03-28T19:54:00.002+08:00

gahhh...im pissed..i went to get a haircut today. at first, it looked good in the process. but somehow now it seems like my hair was raped by a cat and then vomited on. aaarrrgghhh!! this is madness! so unfair.. my head feels like it lost 10kg. but the bright side of it is that at least i wont have uncontrollable hair when i skate. wont be as irritating as last time. but still. hair..i miss you already.. dad says i look alot more like a chinese now with this hair. T.T the worst part about all this was that i cut my hair cause i might be goin out to meet someone on tuesday and i didnt want to look all messy with my long hair. but now, i kinda feel like i shouldnt have cut it at all. =( but nvm..im sure theres a meaning to everything. even this crappy hair. just wait for it to grow back. i feel like i look more like a girl now. hahaha. i'll just have to make this work for me. dammnnn.

and jeng jenggg!! my stupid haircut below.. =.=

2010-03-26T01:54:00.003+08:00

muaahaaahaaa.. ok wtf kind of way to start a post. i dont know. haha. shiitt mate. alright. so the past few days have been extremely sucky. bad days. dont know why but my moods down. im not angry,depressed, sad or anything like that. just that i have no mood. :/ and i hit my head 2 times while alighting of vehicles. im not that tall right. im just clumsy. haha. anyways, its been pouring like heavy shits these days. cant skate at all. which blows horse dick. myehhh..hahaha..

i wanna ask someone out but i cant. i dont know how and im nervous. and im scareeeddd the hell mannn!! some people ask ppl out like its no big deal. like its a normal everyday routine. im no hot shit or some handsome prince. haha. im probably a below average looking person. nothing much bout me really to be honest. just some soon to be 20(holy crap i cant believe it!) year old guy that likes to smile at people for no reason. hahaha. xD what should i dooooooooooo??? lol. alright. end whiny shit here. =)

2010-03-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

Today's session at bedok with the eunos dudes and the usual guys was awesome. playing tranny with rush and shafizal was damn fun. hahaha. woohoo! finally skated with shafizal..after more than 2 weeks. hahahaa. I am INSPIRED. haha

2010-03-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

Bryan Herman is a beast! not much footy of him nowadays but he's still ripping shit.

rainy weather nowadays totally blows. my brain tells me to play games at home. but my eyes are too sore today. have no idea why. so in the end i just stoned at home. and search for songs. starting to listen to japanese bands, korean music and all that. mainly cause the music gets me pumped up for some reason. hahaha. weird ain't it? but fuck it. i dont care. haaha. i need to put new songs in my mp3. haha. watched big daddy on cable just now. i watched Law Abiding Citizen just now. couldnt watch till the end cause the dvd is fucked. it got crappy and stuck at about 3/4 of the movie. dammit!!!! need to get another copy. must watch till the end. awesome movie. haha. =)

2010-03-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

Back injury. i feel like some yakuza shit brahs. my back is aching like a mother duck. cant skate as much but im ignoring it all. fuck it. haha. i just wanna skate nowadays. dont care about anything else. skating at LSP just now was fun. though the original plan was to skate at go sports but due to the heavy rain, we had to go to lsp. damn im so lazy to type. i wish i can type using my mind. yeahhh! like some x men shit sonn.. hahahaha! k im crapping. shabadabadoobydoo!!

2010-03-15T03:53:00.002+08:00

4am. im not asleep. ive to sleep soon though. cause we're gonna be skating tmrw(or soon shall i say, since technically, its already tomorrow.) Mr Syafiq a.k.a basshunter(HAHAHA) is not joining cause he's got basshunting to do. hahaha! but shafizal "hey monday" is skating. i just know this guy is gonna rip at the park. can't wait. ok im out. chow digidy dig. =)

2010-03-13T03:52:00.003+08:00

My ankle is screwing up. no idea why. its not getting better from the time i accidentally popped it. but no matter, i wont let it stop me or hold me back. life goes on. im moving forward. haha. im talking about my ankle like it just broke up with me or something. hahaha. im watching cinderella man everyday, well night actually. one ep per night. i dont usually watch this kinda things. specially with a name like "Cinderella Man" you'd be like, khalid is going crazy now. hahaa. but yes im watching it. for 2 reasons.

Firstly cause of this cutie here. oooooo. she's just adorable. haha.

and secondly, the storyline amuses me in some sort. plus its quite funny. so i like funny shows. thus, a reason for me to watch. haha. ^^ and now its time to crash and burn...in bed.. muahahaaa..chow digidy dig!

Oh! This dude rips. i like ninja style skating! hahahaha.

2010-03-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

my ankle popped for awhile last night while skating at eunos. so today im resting it. no skating. probably tmrw maybe? im not sure. if they're on im on. =) yea i've got ankle problems. to much sprained ankles equals bad ankles. the specialist says ive got bilaterral inversion or smthing like that.. hahaha..

anw, chatting with someone i liked in the past on msn has started to bring in old feelings back. i dont want to get too far ahead of myself in this kinda things. i suck at relationships. i think. haha. anyways, nows not the time for relationships and all that. im just chilling out. kick back and relax with my homies. im not gonna put myself in some situation im steadfast and 200% sure about it. went out with mum to accompany her with her M.A.C.S application. bumped into my cousins and aunty. so long since ive seen them. and they've grown like alot. hahaha. my auntie didnt recognize me >.< hahaha. walked around for awhile since theres nothing better to do at home. supermarketed for awhile and cabbed ourselves home. =)

2010-03-08T23:45:00.004+08:00

*insert gayish laugh* hahahah.. when they were naming the street, didnt anyone say like "it sounds wrong and weird." haha.

P.S: im still hooked on SNSD. they're too cute. hahaha. what? its normal okay..lolll.. XD

2010-03-08T06:20:00.002+08:00

When its over, its over. And it's all good. Here's to the past and all the good memories.

On a more serious note though. i think my cousin(whose family is staying in the same house as us) should start acting more responsibly. Your husband is working and i dont really see where his income goes to. I mean like he boasts about how he brings back 2grand for the company and shit. and says he works to the bone and all that. but where's the bread? surely if he's such a "good worker" he should be reeling in the dough. all i ever see him fork out money for something is when..wait.. i NEVER EVER saw him fork out money. hmm..wheres his pay huh? honestly, if this didnt concern my family, i couldnt care less about your situation. but its affecting my parents. every morning, u put on that pathetic little face of yours and say that u have no money to go the market and buy groceries for cooking. and expect my parents to give u the money. you are freaking close to 30 years old!! and you're still mooching off of peoples money??!! what the fuck? u have ur own family. ur own husband. for gods sake, u have 6 children already and ure still pulling off this shit? UNBELIEVABLE. thats some fucked up shit right there. and when u have extra cash, u dont save it but blow it on cigarettes. so much for quitting once u have a daughter. your words are just as empty as your husbands head. So now you're asking my dad for money to pay for cable. if its like 20 or 30 bucks, i guess im ok with that. but freaking 200 bucks?! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH UR HEAD??!! my dad works his butt off to try and earn an honest living and you are ripping 200 bucks off of him? i swear i'd punch u and ur husband in the face if my mum would'nt mind. seriously.

my dads paying for the cable that YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND wanted and said would pay for it. u know what, the channels u guys pick suck balls. the only channel worth watching is only cartoons(which YOU subscribed for YOUR KIDS) and AXN. the rest are all for you and your husband. for example; ESPN,ASSP-astro supersport, Esports. thats for your goddamn husband to watch his stupid football matches and talk shit he probably doesnt understand about. then theres bollywood tv and some other indian tv channels. my mum doesnt even watch those channels! its for you and your indian husband to watch. i mean. my mums malay,dads chinese and im chinese. DO U THINK WE'D WANNA FUCKING WATCH INDIAN MOVIES??!!!!

I've suggested nicely to get the better channels like HBO,Starmovies,MTV(heheh), and all those other kickass movie channels. but the "genius indian husband" says this "why subscribe to those channels when we can watch the dvd's? they're playing movies that we already have on DVD anyway." Well for one reason mr cheap bastard, WE DONT FREAKING HAVE ALL THE MOVIES THAT ARE PLAYING!! some dvds are in sucky ass condition. poor lighting and all that shit. we subscribe to the channel cause we sometimes have not watched that movie or its too old to find anymore orrrrr we wanna watch it in high quality, dumbass. Who would've thought Russel Peters was right. Indians are cheap in another sense. *not racist, just stating. If it makes u feel better, chinese have small penises. LOL!!! *

I just hope all this mooching stops cause my parents need the money for themselves too. be responsible. its about time you faced this thing called LIFE. alright im out. peace.

2010-03-02T17:37:00.003+08:00

Song playing: Here's To The Past
Current Mood: Big fat fucking FML.

woke up all excited to skate today. was gonna go to danga bay to skate alone. just for fun. it rained for awhile. like drizzled abit and then it stopped. i thought that was it and no more rain right.well...i WAS WRONG. got ready and shit. took the cab there. and theres a fucking heavy shower. nice. =.=" so i told the cabby to turn back around. sooooo..i just paid like RM 16 for a taxi ride from my house to danga bay back to my house. FML right? seriously. i still smell nice right now. the perfume has not even evaporated or whatever the hell it does after a long time. tomorrow i gotta go to CMPB again. to collect some i dont know what the fuck kinda letter or form and also for a checkup. im not sure whats the check for. aaahhh. need to drag ass all the way to depot road. thats gonna be like a 3 hour trip for me? FFUUUUCCKK!! I hope that place explodes one day and all the files get burnt so they wont bother more people. hahaha. shit. imma go eat my pringles now. i hate today.

2010-03-01T23:56:00.003+08:00

HAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! sorry to the non malay speaking readers..bt this is just too funny! hahahaha! Sign board FAIL!

2010-03-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

Hope is not for the faint of heart. because when they have hope, and get let down, they cant accept the reality.

Sir Isaac Newton not only came up with the equation for energy..he also 360 hardflipped down the carlsbad gap..nice.. hahahahaha!

Da Vinci bs 180 switch overcrooked the el toro rail.. LOL!

k this is mega random..bubye..

2010-02-28T00:48:00.003+08:00

got home about an hour ago..skate session with bryner,syamil,rushman(finally..haha), syafiq and danial..overall it was awesome..syafiq getting better..more tricks already brah! me on the other hand, lost tricks..haha..need to get them back mannn..freakin hate losing tricks..like u worked so hard to get it down and then u lose the feeling just like that..its like failing in kindergarten class..LOL. highlight of the day for me.. really beautiful girl in the bus to malaysia..she was in the same bus with me from kranji all the way to JB. damn..she's pretty..with her friends and all..im sorry i blog about this..hahaha. but like yea, i kept taking glances at her..looked indonesian but she talks without an indonesian accent. probably mixed race. today was the first time i wished there was a traffic jam. so i could look at her for a longer time. stalker sounding?? O,o HAHA..no im not..please.. lol... but there was a short jam only..and then bubuye pretty lady..if only i had the balls to go up to her and tell her shes pretty..myeehh..now im not gonna see her again.. *insert stupid sad face* hahahaaha! woohoo..eating nasi lemak soon.yessa! with some chicken..

BTW!! i was wondering..escalate means to go up, right?? so what would u call the "escalators" that go down?? i dont think escalator would be appropriate...muahaha..childish brain at work here..lol..and one more thing.. the phrase "Come into me" just doesnt sound appropriate at all..or even "come to me." just sounds sexually harassing.. HAHAHA! ok im done..chaow diggydi dig..

2010-02-16T05:50:00.003+08:00

dont judge based on what u see or hear.. cause no matter what, u dont know what is going on in my head. gyeah mafakaaaass..

yay random typing time! chubaka lolipop scorpion megadeth iron tiger chronic cocks stupid idiot pee pee rectum anus sex heart shit love dicks fire ice water jail antwuan nigger damn straight gangsta whoop bruce lee justin bieber fucking gay jackie chan jet lie wong fei hong chinese new year dragon tiger gate of hell.

2010-02-15T01:47:00.003+08:00

Damn!!! these 2 girls blow my brains out!!! hahahaha. but yoona is still the most amazing looking..hahahahah..and its the first time i ever thought a korean girl is HOT! bbye megan fox. Hello YOONA! hahahaha! xD

How was your valentines day? i had a date with skateboarding. ^^ its much better than anything else right now. i love skateboarding and skateboarding will always make me happy regardless of injuries. My skateboard is my best friend. haha.

P.S: im not psychotic. just really disturbed at the moment. haha.

2010-02-14T02:44:00.003+08:00

He's one official BAMF. Bad Ass MotherFuckaaaa

Big thanks to my parents. for the surprise Levis jeans. its awesome! love it. =)

Happy Chinese New Year to all my chinese homies. and yea valentines day to those celebrating it. im not. hahaha. Lena is back. ^^V she finally popped at the corner of my screen today. yay! hahaha.

2010-02-13T04:11:00.004+08:00

im very2 lost on the inside right now. its been 2, 3 days since i had contact with u. i dont know whats happened. where u are and your condition. im very worried. called you but i cant get through. i know the surgery was successful and that your out safely. but now, i dont know where u are. im trying my best to stay positive and not let the bad thoughts control my mind. but it gets harder and harder everyday. if u have something to say, i really2 hope u just say it. dont keep it in. cause the last thing i ever want is for any of us to get hurt. i miss you. i miss your voice. i miss your smile, your laugh and your craziness. i hope you come back soon. every night, i stay up, waiting for ur name to pop up on my screen but it has not happened yet so far.

2010-02-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

If your hair is pink but ur'e still kickin it, it will look hella great. =D i cant deny that some scenies are hot. lol.

yesterday's skate session was awesome. feels good to finally be able to get back on my board again. haha. can't skate much though. the strain is still there. but its all good. just happy to skate again. woohoo! and last night i blacked out(fell asleep) at home after talking for awhile with lena. she's getting surgery today. getting her tonsils removed. so i wish her well and hope she'll be safe. ^^ oh and i woke up at 5.30pm today. i totally blacked out. hahaa. probably cause the previous day i didnt sleep at all before going to skate. i really did not even get 5 mins of shut eye. lol. ok now imma go eat some kuey teow my mum cooked! bye2.

P.S: how do we say kuey teow in english? like real english. Flat noodles ? hahahaha xD

2010-02-06T20:29:00.002+08:00

It's really heartbreaking when u find out something u never expected about someone u care so much about. like, they tell u stuff and u start to believe in them. Then,one day u looked into something too deep, and u see something so hurtful, your heart literally stops beating. it stays hurt like that till god knows when. until u convince yourself to forget about it. i've followed someone with my heart outside,for the world to see and now she's gone. and im left in a deep dark hole that's gonna be hard to get out of. but i guess i had it coming. karma's a bitch isn't it. just when i started to care again, i get stabbed. i'm not going to go back again. but i don't want to jump to conclusions though. i'm just gonna wait and see how things go. but one thing is for sure. im not opening the inside of my heart anymore. i love you. but..its not about me anymore..its about you..

2010-02-05T02:03:00.005+08:00

I got bored at home.. so i took a pencil and paper. started drawing things that came to my mind. the end result. Venom Four Arms. yea. as in ben 10 four arms. haha. and this random piece which has alot of images in one. depends whether u can spot it. =)

I played around with photoshop and the drawings came out kinda cool in my opinion. if only i knew how to colour it up using photoshop. haha.

I accidentally read something about high standard brands. ya know. like versace, guess, Armani etc etc. well i dont think im gonna be one of those kinda people that will wear those kinda brands. one reason, they're really pricey. for something that looks like any other kinda clothes. second, its not really, ME. haha. but thats all im gonna ramble about.

Big Thanks to my pri school buddy Donovan for helping me out with figuring out that song. appreciate it alot mate. its kinda surprising actually that my pri sch friends still remember me after like 8 years. hahaha. i still remember them though. =D

2010-02-04T01:01:00.003+08:00

Alienware Siolsxxcccxzzzzz!! hahahahaha..

my laptop has changed from looking like shit to awesomeness..though im still working on getting some of the problems fixed..like msn and all that crap.. now im waiting for Live Messenger to finish downloading. which is taking forever. i feel like my laptop is stuck on snail mode or something. haha. bt anyways, ankle still isn't recovered yet. just have to be patient and wait i guess. im using ebuddy for now. talking to syamster and lena. meheheh..

P.S: Eric Cartman is the shit. hahaha XD

2010-02-03T04:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i cant help but wonder if you feel the same way as i do. i mean, one hand cant clap by itself. if only you'd tell me. let me know what's going on deep inside. my mind will finally be at rest.

2010-02-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

Amy Adams! nice hair.. hahaa. plus she was kinda cute in enchanted. hahaha

HALOOOWWW!!! hahahaa.. i wanna blog in the most broken/singlish/chinese/malay manner ever. like ive never done before on my blog..hahaha..woohoo.lets go G.O GO!! hahaha

kk..so today i wake up at 6 sia..waliao..so damn tired. i dont know why sia. but before that i also got like keep waking up ah. like sleep wake up sleep wake up again. like that lor. hahaha. *hows my crappy english so far? HAHA! *

then after i wake up, i slowly2 go walk to the living room. my mum all sleeping outside. haha. food also dont have. wahhh. i so hungry liao..but nehmine. open fridge drink some sprite. yea. i first thing after wake up drink sprite. nice right? hahaha. then ahh.. i go to my mum and wake her up lor. i use my towel disturb her. then she ask me what i want. i say i want eat lor. then she make maggi goreng. eh damn nice sia. not the instant one ah. the cooked one. loll. then i go online awhile. bathe. then eat my maggi goreng. plus i watch gamers. nice lah siaaaaaa. fuck damn nice. seriously. i know ah like very outdated already. but still nice what. hahaha.

my ankle now abit ok already. can see some bones. better than yesterday. cannot see the bone at all. so macam nk okay already ah. hopefully by friday can skate dah. woohoo.. next time if skate, dont want to over exert already ah. i wanna slowly skate. cant force myself. cos later in the end i regret sehy. hahaha.

Now im listening to music on my sound system thingy. very nice. i like the bass. here i can blast like crazy and no one will complain. cos the walls very thick ah. haha.i like i like. hehe. k lahhh..i wanna stop this stupid language posting thingy. i cant be an ahbeng. LOL! XD

Old ADTR songs are the shit. and recently i've been listening to some great bands. there are afew. freaking eargasmic. ^^

2010-01-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

I just noticed that my ankle has gotten pretty fucked up. when i was applying the lubricant on my ankle, i looked at it and saw the damn bruise..its pretty bad..my ankle basically has no shape right now. its like an alien ankle. cant even see the ankle bone. this is really gonna take a long time to heal. fuck this. i hate ankle sprains. id rather bust my head open and go to hospital. at least i'd still be able to skate after.

i hate staying home. i hate doing nothing at home. im trying my best to be a lil bit more productive at home but i can't. cause i'm thinking about stuff constantly. i dont knowwww..i just want things to go back to normal. like last time. my life right now really sucks. 2010 is really screwing my life up. _|_

I wish things would go back to when it was just me,friends,skateboarding,fun and of course, her. when there was nothing bothering my mind. Maybe the hardest things to get back are actually some of the simplest things in life.

2010-01-30T02:46:00.002+08:00

E.E \m/

WOOOOHOOOOOO!!! 2 Sprained ankles in 2 weeks, back to back!!! how great is that?! FUCK!!!! First my right ankle..Now its my left ankle..Is Kurt Angle's spirit fucking stalking me or something?? and giving me bloody ass ankle locks?! gah!

Great..so now i've to waste away another week or so..cant skate anymore..but nevermind..there's always a treasure behind every challenge..be positive! lol. i hope i heal fast..i already miss skating..haha..

nevermind..one day i will achieve my dream of ..something..haha..btw, freaky stuff happened again! yay! lol. 12am,i'm at my door. gate is locked behind me. opened the door. its dark inside the house. i take off my shoes. bent down to pick them up and i heard a kid laughing in my right ear.. =.=" awesome huh ? i got fuckin scared and ran like a crazy shit into the house. saw the kids. they didnt laugh or anything. they were bz watching tv. soooo..who laughed?? i dont know.. god knows.. why me? always me? =(

and ive got a flu now also..plus a headache..life is peachy..mofo..LOL

2010-01-28T02:05:00.003+08:00

holding out for someone.
reaching as far as i can with my tiny hands.
Across oceans and grasslands.
Grab my hand please,before i fall back into the ocean of solitude.

I dont know, but i just feel like somethings wrong. my mind is not at rest. somethings banging on the inside of my brain. its screaming inside. but i dont know what it is. skateboarding always helps me forget about stuff. but then it will come back again. i know for certain that unless i resolve the screaming in my head,my mind will never be at rest.

P.S: Get well soon. Ik Hou Van Jou. ^^

2010-01-27T02:10:00.002+08:00

My arms are really trembling as im typing all this. Never did i think something like this would've happened. i gave u my heart. i believed in you. i guess now its time u believed in me. please have some faith in me. yesterday, i told you something that i find extremely hard to say. i opened up to you. because i knew that i could say everything to you. cause i love you. you know that i would never do anything to hurt you. i care about u so much. all this is just a misunderstanding. i swear i dont have any feelings for that girl or as a matter of fact,any other girl thats not a part of my family. you are the one i care about most. you are the one that i would risk everything to just see a smile. i'd give anything just to turn that frown into a smile. u can look into it yourself if u dont believe me. just look at our wall to wall. i never ever said i loved her. or even that i liked her. cause all thats in my heart and mind is you. yes you. Lena. and i know that you're hurting right now. im really2 sorry. if only you could see how sorry i am. a greatest fear of mine is to lose someone that i love and care about alot. and right now. that fear is haunting and creeping over me. Maybe i dont mean that much to you. but you mean Everything to me. I love you Lena. im sorry. pls have faith in me. in us.

2010-01-25T02:09:00.002+08:00

I miss weekend skateboarding..ahhhh..ankle please please please heal!!

I think i've been playing too much Left 4 Dead. Cause i'm starting to have dreams of zombie kills. Hell,even killing freakin witches. hahahahaha! but i just got owned just now in my dream by some random vampire. yes. vampire. how gay is that? thats like some twilight shit right there. and i dont even watch twilight. ahahah. i wanna play Left 4 Dead 2. I need to go to City Square and buy that. =.=" Crap, i've got a medical checkup at jurong clinic coming up this tuesday.

Sail away from the shoreline

2010-01-22T15:33:00.017+08:00

3.35pm right now..im super bored..my eyes are really droopy. i wanna sleep badly but whenever i try to sleep,i can't. wtf is with my brain right now? seriously. i need to sleep. im turning into a half zombie as im typing this. i can close my eyes will be sleeping but the rest is still awake. they have their own life. O.o hahaha. seeeee..noww im crapping around again. imma go with the flow and continue my shit right now.. haha..

I have a bunch of people i look up to. i'll put them up..not in order though..yea..im bored..so..ok..hahaha.. XD

-Mum and Dad. They are legit my heroes. no doubt.
-Jackie Chan. Cause he is deadly and funny at the same time. =D haha!

-Buckethead. Cause of the raw emotions he put into his music. he needs no words to express his music. he is just pure awesomeness. My guitar idol for sure. Take me as ur apprentice buckethead!!! hahaha. ^^

-Bruce Lee. This bloody guy has been in my head since i was a kid. who can forget? he influenced us so much that even till now,whenever we strike a martial arts move, we'll go like " WATAAAA!!!" hahahaha! right3? Bruce Lee was probably one of the baddest mofo that everlived. dont mess with the Dragon. hahaha!

-And of course theres others...like power rangers..err..yea..haha..the baker boys and deathwish team. =)

but ohhh. This girl here..words just cant describe enough what i think about her..u'll have to rip out my heart and project the thoughts from my brain onto a big ass white screen. then u'll get the absolute answer. =D But if i were to try and explain as detailed as possible right now, she's my heart,soul, my everything. my bundle of joy. I dont have to say that she's beautiful,cause thats really2 obvious..well at least to me of course. i dont give a damn what u might think of her. lol. anw,with her, i dont really need to have her right smack in front of me to feel the love, cause i can already feel it. Though if she were in front of me,i'd smile like some crazy psycho. cause she makes me that happy.. haha.. =D Next time if we go on cam,lets talk k k k k k k k ??? =DDDDD hahaha..i love ur cute voice.. <3333333>

2010-01-21T23:22:00.003+08:00

AAHHH!! Bored at homeee..solution? Kill Lady Gaga Songs!!! HAHAHAHHAH!! naahh..kidding..i just did this for fun..hope u guys like it..whoever it is that reads my blog anyway..hahah..Bad Romance and Paparazzi.. LOL

I did a reallyyyy sloppy job on paparazzi..haha..i know.. but yea..was just screwing around .. heh xD

2010-01-20T11:24:00.005+08:00

been 3 days since i sprained my ankle..got a "death massage" from my dad last night. the reason i call it that is cause whenever he massages my ankle,its like he wants to kill me by torturing my ankle..hahah..anw, its pretty swollen. cant walk that easily. i really want it to heal faster. cause i miss skating like bloody hell. dammit. shouldn't have skated before syamil came that day. else i would've been injury-free. !@^%^@#$!@#!! been staying at home all the while. what have i been doing at home ? been doing guitar covers..yes im that bored..but hey,i might as well work on my guitaring since i can't skate. dont waste my time doing nothing at home. .there a bunch i put up on fb. yes. i was that bored. hahahah!

Oh, i swear webcamming with lena is the best! haha. cause she's crazy and adorable. dancing around and making silly faces. thats just what i love about her. she just knows how to make me laugh. yeaaaa..i know what u guys are thinking..ure like "yea yea. last time u said the same tihng about some other girl." But seriously though..she's really different from any girl i've known. and im so happy i got to know her.

and 2 days ago, she was looking mighty adorable. only been 2 days and i already miss her. haha. but yea. she's awesome. i will wait for that one very day when we'll see eye to eye. =)

2010-01-14T08:04:00.002+08:00

8.05am. not sleeping. insomniac much? haha.

life update: I wont be staying in yishun anymore for now. i'll be staying back in my house in JB. hell,there are quite a number of reasons actually. first of all, family conflict. which truly doesn't bother me much. secondly, bitch-mouth auntie that keeps badmouthing me for doing nothing wrong. plus badmouthing my family too. which really ticks me off. third but most importantly, im staying her cause of my mum. She's sick. she's been sick for a really long time. and when i came to visit her afew days back,she seemed so happy. just seeing my mum smile is a good enough blessing for me. mum wants me to stay here with her. how could i say no? after all that she's sacrificed for me,i don't think staying with her is such a big hassle. so yea. im staying here with her. i hope she gets well soon. and if anyone is like "mann. what a mummy's boy. pussy." i just have this to say to you. when your mum is probably sick and yearning for their child(you) to stay with them,please say a big fat NO to them. cause u dont be a mummy's boy or girl right? =D

and oh,if you're wondering how im online, im using a mobile broadband modem. ^^ i feel at home in this place. my bloody ps2 is here too! and im playing resident evil:Dead Aim. i know its really old. i bought it when i was umm. 13? but didnt play the game. hahaha! 7 years over man! hahahah! and i finally get to play guitar hero again. muahaha. and yes! i miss skating. alot.

2010-01-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like posting out about my day today. not cause it was a bad day or whatsoever. it was great. but i'm just not in the mood to post about my day. Its cause lately i've been thinking much about my life. and i'm really not that pleased with my life. everything is all gone haywire. everything is in a mess. I'm sorry if all this sounds really gay and all that. but this is where i've decided to let out what i need to. I wish i could just down some magical pills or whatever that would make me forget everything that has happened. Yea,i'm all smiles and jingles when everyone sees me,but the reality is that im just as broken inside as any other human being out there. My parents have not been staying in the same house as me, since god knows when. All cause of the conflict between them and my auntie. this is all just my shit luck. and i've thought through about moving to another country once i can afford to. and yea i'll obviously bring my parents along to wherever im going to. i dont care if they want to or not. theyre coming along. they deserve a better life somewhere. hey,after all that sacrifice for me, its the least i could do to repay them. im probably goin to somewhere where there are 4 seasons. maybe korea? somewhere in europe? or..maybe dubai? someday, somehow, i'll get there. again, my apologies for a sappy post. its not wrong for me to get in touch with emotions once a while right? i'm human after all.

and i'm still wondering if she's really serious about all this. cause i don't wanna get stuck in a half-hearted relationship. like yea. i know im not the most good looking guy out there....ok scratch that. i'd be happy to even get a 1/2 star rating. cos im that shitty ass looking. yea. im not some greek god. but yea, if she's serious, i'd probably be one lucky asian bastard and be really2 happy. happy wont quite explain how i'd feel. but still. i have yet to know. when i'll know? im not sure. i dont want it to end like this. no. not now. not yet. not ever.

2010-01-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

JIM GREC BEEYATCH!

Today is my "wet day." Wanna know whyyyyy?? becauseeeee. went to Eunos to skate and then freakin rained after we skated for like 15 mins or so. skated to shelter and the rain got heavier, making my deck wet. my deckkk!! i hate getting my deck wet. drench me but not my deck pleaseeee.. my preciousss~~ chilled at the shelter,watch a few "Game of S.K.A.T.E"s . got hungry,went to Mac to eat. Yay! Twister fries ftw bitches! hahaha! then me and rushman kept making bob disgusted with his Milo Mcflurry. 4 simple words: 2 Girls,1 Cup. HAHAHAHAHA! then skated with rushman at "eunos berrics" which is just beside Mac,while bob went to help the others dry up the skatepark with newspapers. hahaha. *my fingers are getting tired of typing* went back to the skatepark that was still wet, and waited fr it to dry up. which it barely did. as always, we session the flatbar. cause thats what we usually go there for. haha. and as the night went on. my luck got..wet.. my deck went into puddles..for like..idk..5 times?? fuck mannnn.. my deck is like a cat..it hates water! hahaha.. and if getting my deck wet was not enough. i had to bail and fall into a puddle myself. =.= Epic. LOL! ok then went home. yes! im done! woohoo! im getting freakin lazy to blog. i wish i had machine fingers of doom. so i can type like iron man..wait.does iron man blog? HAHA! ok wtf shut up. bye bye!

Baker and Deathwish. Saya suka sangat2. hebat sungguh. hahahaha. sempoiiiiiii.. LOL!! xD

2010-01-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

My auntie and uncle are fighting again. gah. why do i have to be here when all this happens? I'm usually the i don't care type of person but in this case, i really feel sorry for my uncle. cos he has a two faced wife that can't shut her yap. ok maybe there is a way to shut it. Stuff it with money. cause thats probably what makes her stfu. I hate being in the middle of a conflict. but what am i to do? im stuck her anyways till my parents can find another place for me to live.

Pretty much stoned my whole day away. awesome. legs are sore from skating the past few days. i feel like getting a job..bt then i want a job i will enjoy doing and not dread waking up to. haha.

oh and something creepy sorta happened to me last night. i took a shower at 2am and washed my clothes. yeah. at 2am. stupid. i know. haha! so blabla went out to hang them. yes. hang clothes to dry at 2am. =.= hhahah! okok. so while i was hanging the shits, i felt some cold wind pass. oh plus it was utterly quiet. no one was out. i was really alone. so yea cold wind. i gt goosebumps. and for some freakin reason, i felt someone watching me and i kept looking up at the trees and the top of buildings. like i was expecting to see something,probably in white looking at me. yea! fuckin stupid. if someone is scared, they wouldnt search fr that goddamn thing right? haha.im weird. LOL. went back into the house and washed my feet. all is well. i think. o.O muahahaha! i wish i had a ghostbuster trap thingy. haha!

P.S: Some 34 year old WOMAN. PLEASE NOTE: WOMAN! NOT GIRL! added me on tagged. what the buck. im not approving. hahaha!

2010-01-07T06:09:00.000+08:00

I'm goin to sleep now. i love you. i hate waking up.

2010-01-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

Just got back home. Skated with Danial at queenstown today. Fun ber?! hahaha! sorry,inside joke. lol. Reached queens and danial was already waiting for me. skate skate skate and felt that something was wrong with my trucks. checked, 2 nuts on one side are missing. =.= so it went wobbly. haha. had to go to margaret drive. then we skated there also. until "koston" came. then it became abit weird. cause that is like his 2nd home maybe.he's good. lol. but abit like "sombong." hahaha. but who am i to judge. i just wanna sk8. went back to queens. tried to get our ledge tricks constant. =) at 7.15pm, danial had to go to work and i was left with 2 others. one guy from sabah called "Eunos" that stays at east coast. isn't it kinda funny? eunos in east coast. LOL! k im lame i know. hahahaha! then one by one they left and by 7.45pm i was left alone. creepy? kinda. but there were joggers from time to time. soooo. its ok i guess. haha. ouhhh. my tshirt was so drenched i had to take it off. since nobody was at the skatepark.. muahaha! and after 5mins of skating half naked, my body was so dry..and cold.. >.<

2010-01-05T02:30:00.000+08:00

Listening now: Another Song For The Weekend - ADTR

2.30 am and im not asleep. reason is cause i already slept just now. soooo..i have enough sleep. lol. anyways, probably gonna go skate at queenstown alone later,if danial is not joining. I'm really bored. nowadays its been raining heavily. =.= must be cause of all the snow around the world. fuck. i wish singapore had snow. but nooooo..instead we're located on the belt of this earth. freakin equator. we are freakin equator freaks. hahaha.

OH! DANG! u guys have to watch this! look at the starting! epic face!! hahahahaah!

2010-01-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

So recently i've received friend request from a bunch of people on fb and other sites. i kinda have this policy where i don't really approve "mats and minahs." haha. unless i'm really tired and super lazy to look at their faces. lol. sooo. there's been a number of times recently where i see a pic of a girl right. and she looks okay. looks like a fun person to be friends with. oh im not hoping to make any of them my gf mind you. hahaha. okok. so yea. they look fine and dandy. But after approving them, check out their photos and see the horrible truth. SIAAALLAAAAAA!! BULU KENING NIKE!! Adidas,Reebok, all types of kening(eyebrows) mannn. wtf?! i have been decieved. hahahaha! but there are also cases where foreigners add me up. and when i say foreigners,i mean like people who are staying in other countries, like America, United Kingdom etc etc. these people are really fun to be friends with,cause they are like a totally different kind of people. unlike us. u can't really expect what's gonna come up as the next topic. Plus you get to learn about their life and all that other stuff. thats why i like having overseas friends. so im off now.

oh btw, i know this blog isn't read by many or maybe not even read by anyone at all. but i don't really care cause my life is not about being read,it's about being written. ^^ peace.

2010-01-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

So i guess i owe hakim,khairul and ahmad an apology. Especially Khairul.. cause i didn't attend his sisters wedding, which he invited me to. Sorry guys. and to hakim,sorry i didnt notice u calling me at night and in the morning. I turned in early last night. and my hp was on silent. but i woke up in the morning when my dad came back home. so went online,did some shits which took about 5 mins and went back to slp. and i slept all the way to 5pm. im not ignoring u guys. seriously. if i was ignoring u guys, why would i call hakim back after i woke up and saw all the missed calls? I even didn't go out and sk8 with the guys. i never ignore my skate buds or in this case, do not RSVP them. Reason: i slept and slept and slept. im very tired. i dont know why. so if u guys still think im ignoring u guys, suit yourself. it would really be a shame if the years of friendship can be smashed just with one misunderstanding. but im sorry anyways.

2010-01-01T01:50:00.000+08:00

Skate at queens with Rushman and bob today. first at queenstown skatepark and then off to Go Sports. haha. fun dayy overall. oh before skating me and rushman went to Far East looking fr a board. since mine already had pressure cracks and stuff. yes! i have found my DEATHWISH! muahahaha!! wth..hahaha..

but something sad happened while skating. look at it and u will understand. haha.

Muka mantain ah brah! LOL!!!