i pretty much fail epicly when it comes to things concerning people of the opposite gender. yes. the female of our species. i've had this thing for this one girl for a long time. ok scratch that. a really long time. but i've never had the guts to tell her i felt that way. how long u may ask..i would get the term days and months out of the way. cause its been years. i wont say how many years though. i've kept my distance from her at times cause i wanted to fight off that feeling, knowing that she's probably out of my league. i was stupid enough to believe that someone of my appearance and status actually had a chance with someone of her standard. come on khalid. how much more naive could you be? somehow i have been keeping away from telling her how i feel inside and managed to do so quite well..until today. where i suddenly felt like it was time to get things out in the open.
well. the verdict : FAIL.
the sad part was that i actually only told her i liked her. i didn't really say how i liked her and all that. u know what i mean right. and just like a pie to the face. she doesn't feel the same way towards me. well, i was kinda expecting it to be honest. but anyhow, its all said and done now. i do feel like my heart has been crushed by a juggernaut but i guess its better for to know now rather than have that hope and continue chasing shadows right? its not so easy to rid myself of this feeling but hey i guess i'll get through it eventually right? i hope so.
i never got a chance to prove myself but that's just how things work. deal with it. i hold no grudges against her of course. i'm not that low. but all i ever wish for right now is just an opportunity. that is all. then again, that could be too much to ask for. im out.
well. the verdict : FAIL.
the sad part was that i actually only told her i liked her. i didn't really say how i liked her and all that. u know what i mean right. and just like a pie to the face. she doesn't feel the same way towards me. well, i was kinda expecting it to be honest. but anyhow, its all said and done now. i do feel like my heart has been crushed by a juggernaut but i guess its better for to know now rather than have that hope and continue chasing shadows right? its not so easy to rid myself of this feeling but hey i guess i'll get through it eventually right? i hope so.
i never got a chance to prove myself but that's just how things work. deal with it. i hold no grudges against her of course. i'm not that low. but all i ever wish for right now is just an opportunity. that is all. then again, that could be too much to ask for. im out.
