Medical review today at Alexandra Hospital. they say my fainting episodes may just be a rare thing. now they say i gotta go for some heart scan. which is gonna be in june. =.= what a long wait. i wanna get into NS as quickly as possible cause i don't wanna be held back by that one tiny thing. which takes up 2 years. myehhh. i think i ate maybe too much today. i feel like my stomach is bloated or something. what did i eat? one chocolate bun. one kaya bun. one large fries. and maggi. damn. maybe thats a lil too much??
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010
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Sunday, April 25, 2010
guys, we're not meant to be "reps".. hahahaa
Since Secondary School beeyatchhh... hahaa..2 original impromptu songs too..not bad huh? hahahahahaa! 8====B
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Reunion with sec sch best friends = kick ass awesomeness!!
i think the walk from woodlands checkpoint to kranji mrt station has helped me increase my walking capability. i feel enhanced and upgraded. new skill achieved. level up to lvl 37. ahahahaha! and i'm still feeling the pinch of heartbreak. yet something is telling me not to lose hope. i think that "something" wants to make me crazy. hahaha. ok ding dong chao!
i think the walk from woodlands checkpoint to kranji mrt station has helped me increase my walking capability. i feel enhanced and upgraded. new skill achieved. level up to lvl 37. ahahahaha! and i'm still feeling the pinch of heartbreak. yet something is telling me not to lose hope. i think that "something" wants to make me crazy. hahaha. ok ding dong chao!
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
i pretty much fail epicly when it comes to things concerning people of the opposite gender. yes. the female of our species. i've had this thing for this one girl for a long time. ok scratch that. a really long time. but i've never had the guts to tell her i felt that way. how long u may ask..i would get the term days and months out of the way. cause its been years. i wont say how many years though. i've kept my distance from her at times cause i wanted to fight off that feeling, knowing that she's probably out of my league. i was stupid enough to believe that someone of my appearance and status actually had a chance with someone of her standard. come on khalid. how much more naive could you be? somehow i have been keeping away from telling her how i feel inside and managed to do so quite well..until today. where i suddenly felt like it was time to get things out in the open.
well. the verdict : FAIL.
the sad part was that i actually only told her i liked her. i didn't really say how i liked her and all that. u know what i mean right. and just like a pie to the face. she doesn't feel the same way towards me. well, i was kinda expecting it to be honest. but anyhow, its all said and done now. i do feel like my heart has been crushed by a juggernaut but i guess its better for to know now rather than have that hope and continue chasing shadows right? its not so easy to rid myself of this feeling but hey i guess i'll get through it eventually right? i hope so.
i never got a chance to prove myself but that's just how things work. deal with it. i hold no grudges against her of course. i'm not that low. but all i ever wish for right now is just an opportunity. that is all. then again, that could be too much to ask for. im out.
well. the verdict : FAIL.
the sad part was that i actually only told her i liked her. i didn't really say how i liked her and all that. u know what i mean right. and just like a pie to the face. she doesn't feel the same way towards me. well, i was kinda expecting it to be honest. but anyhow, its all said and done now. i do feel like my heart has been crushed by a juggernaut but i guess its better for to know now rather than have that hope and continue chasing shadows right? its not so easy to rid myself of this feeling but hey i guess i'll get through it eventually right? i hope so.
i never got a chance to prove myself but that's just how things work. deal with it. i hold no grudges against her of course. i'm not that low. but all i ever wish for right now is just an opportunity. that is all. then again, that could be too much to ask for. im out.
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Dear god, im trying really hard to stay on the right path. i may go astray at times but i beg u to give me the strength and willpower to get back. im doing my best and putting all my efforts into just this one thing. So please protect my mind and soul from the temptations of the devil and all other negativity. Please give me the strength dear god.
i still cant figure when to say it. i cant help but feel the dilemma right now. i dont wanna jump in too fast but i also feel like i'm taking it maybe a tad too slow. i dont know. the feeling is real and it probably isn't goin anywhere. you never seem to amuse me each and every single time. i guess thats one thing that i adore about you. but yea. who is this "you?" Guess when the time is right, you'll probably know it. some already know. but for the others, lets just leave it a mystery.
i still cant figure when to say it. i cant help but feel the dilemma right now. i dont wanna jump in too fast but i also feel like i'm taking it maybe a tad too slow. i dont know. the feeling is real and it probably isn't goin anywhere. you never seem to amuse me each and every single time. i guess thats one thing that i adore about you. but yea. who is this "you?" Guess when the time is right, you'll probably know it. some already know. but for the others, lets just leave it a mystery.
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Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Bored at home. so i plugged in my trusty guitar and just doodled around with it. been ages since i played it. and i "made a song"..not really.. cause its just me playing random shit.. hahahahaha.. enjoy..or maybe not.. haha.. peace..
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Saturday, April 10, 2010
Gotta go to jalan kayu tmrw at 7pm. Work. hahaa. after how many years i finally decide to work. *angelic music plays* its a miracle. hahahaha. bryner, sorry cant accompany you to margaret bro. my stomach is full of nonsense. been eating crappy/junk-like food for today. nuggets with chilli sauce and rice. not as delicious as i thought it would be. hahah. Plus i've been watching Bleach for the past few days. alot of bleach. cos i totally got nothing better to do to be honest. trying not to go out alot cause my passport is running on the last page already. im tired but when i take a shower and try to sleep, i cant. !@#%$#$!!@#!@#.. lol.. anyways, i'm starting to feel abit less awkward in starting conversations with u. still fighting and holding back these sudden urges to blurt out some stuff though. i dont want it out now. im just keeping it inside for now.
BAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTAAAAAAA!!! bye2.. hahaha
BAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTAAAAAAA!!! bye2.. hahaha
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Saturday, April 3, 2010
Cracked my deck. aaahhh. hate this shit right here man. this sucks. gotta use my savings for a new deck. my moneyyyy...burnt!
p.s: woohooooo..happy for no reason but one..hahaaa..
chaoxinchi!
p.s: woohooooo..happy for no reason but one..hahaaa..
chaoxinchi!
