I don't feel like posting out about my day today. not cause it was a bad day or whatsoever. it was great. but i'm just not in the mood to post about my day. Its cause lately i've been thinking much about my life. and i'm really not that pleased with my life. everything is all gone haywire. everything is in a mess. I'm sorry if all this sounds really gay and all that. but this is where i've decided to let out what i need to. I wish i could just down some magical pills or whatever that would make me forget everything that has happened. Yea,i'm all smiles and jingles when everyone sees me,but the reality is that im just as broken inside as any other human being out there. My parents have not been staying in the same house as me, since god knows when. All cause of the conflict between them and my auntie. this is all just my shit luck. and i've thought through about moving to another country once i can afford to. and yea i'll obviously bring my parents along to wherever im going to. i dont care if they want to or not. theyre coming along. they deserve a better life somewhere. hey,after all that sacrifice for me, its the least i could do to repay them. im probably goin to somewhere where there are 4 seasons. maybe korea? somewhere in europe? or..maybe dubai? someday, somehow, i'll get there. again, my apologies for a sappy post. its not wrong for me to get in touch with emotions once a while right? i'm human after all.
and i'm still wondering if she's really serious about all this. cause i don't wanna get stuck in a half-hearted relationship. like yea. i know im not the most good looking guy out there....ok scratch that. i'd be happy to even get a 1/2 star rating. cos im that shitty ass looking. yea. im not some greek god. but yea, if she's serious, i'd probably be one lucky asian bastard and be really2 happy. happy wont quite explain how i'd feel. but still. i have yet to know. when i'll know? im not sure. i dont want it to end like this. no. not now. not yet. not ever.
and i'm still wondering if she's really serious about all this. cause i don't wanna get stuck in a half-hearted relationship. like yea. i know im not the most good looking guy out there....ok scratch that. i'd be happy to even get a 1/2 star rating. cos im that shitty ass looking. yea. im not some greek god. but yea, if she's serious, i'd probably be one lucky asian bastard and be really2 happy. happy wont quite explain how i'd feel. but still. i have yet to know. when i'll know? im not sure. i dont want it to end like this. no. not now. not yet. not ever.
